I am emerging out of the luscious green jungle of Bali and feel so blessed to have had the opportunity to go on a much needed deep dive these past two months. Vippassana retreat and Bali silent retreat in contemplation, meditation, yoga, prayers and fire rituals was divine nectar for my heart.

I was meditating on the Kintamani mountain next to the active vulcano Mount Agung and in silent retreat next to the active vulcano Mount Batur. It was like Kali and Vajrayogini the Goddesses of transformation was swinging their swords of Radical Truth screaming WAKE UP sister..WAKE UP!!! Venus was retrograde and the blue moon was rising in the sky…aahhh YES! The whole universe conspired to make a massive shift, so I surrendered and let go gracefully.

Just before leaving for Bali I received an Owl statue for my birthday. They are the shamanic medicine animal for seeing through deception, what is normally hidden will be revealed and it kept showing itself several times in various shapes and sizes during this journey. Layers of the unconscious mind were pierced open in light, freeing me from some long held destructive patterns.

It was a great blessing to re-connect with Dharma through Vippassana retreat, I felt as if I was showered in grace directly by Lord Buddha. Buddhism was my first portals into spirituality about 20 years ago and now there is a deep sense of coming home to my roots. Beloved Yidam deity Tara Ma made herself very present with her endless love and compassion and I am feeling even more connected to this name given to me 14 years ago while taking refuge into Buddha, Dharma and Sangha with Kagyu master Ringu Tulku Ringpoche.

And now everything has changed. Life as I knew it dissolved into pure nothingness, I am simply witnessing…acceptance, letting go, surrendering. But I am more clear than I have ever been, I found a truth within – the Guru in my heart. She spoke softly to me with a voice of endless truth, wisdom and compassion.

A deep bow to all of you who have been part of my life making it exactly the way it needed to be, I bow to each and every ONE of you sisters and brothers. The magical journey continues, dancing each other home to the Grand Palace of TRUTH and LOVE. What a dance …what a dance…gratitude every step of the way.

~ Ma Tara Palmo